i get to thinking.

hey! no, i didn't die from the flat or a whole twenty-eight day stint of pure alcoholic behaviour. but i did stop writing. i haven't written much for a long time. months. a few words here and there, but nothing notable.


here i am though. back to typing. more words. i might as well, otherwise i'm just talking to myself... and my poor girlfriend.


so, what have i been thinking, you don't ask? a lot. it's what i do. it's what i like to do. usually. i indulge the comforts of ignorance at times, but regardless, i do not condone it. hypocritical, you say? yes. but unfortunately, contradiction is an ignorance of mine. i am certain that contradictions are central to the experience of contrast in consciousness. but observing and theorizing how/why on a consequential scientific level, and in completely comprehensible language, is difficult. to say the least. and so, my mind is drowned out by sounds of expression through extremes and impressions i feel ignorant towards, in an overlay of unification that only seems too probable not to exist. it's shades of grey, but knowing this and experiencing it two different roads. black and white is a difficult genetic trait to shake, but as of recently i've witnessed episodes of life which appear promising that this very evolution could be taking place. in "free" thinking/practice countries, of course. that's all i can truly observe.


at any rate... what the fuck am i saying? i'm saying we all need to keep ourselves in check. no one's going to do it for us, and no one should have to. and the only real way we can ever progress as a species is to quite literally "come together" (not cum, you perverts) and evolve.


we will not always be human. by that, i mean future generations (given enough time) will not continue to be classifiable as homo sapiens. we will evolve. we must ensure this is done with the utmost care, attention and foresight as currently, and continually possible. we've got to love ourselves and each other to do so.


until next time...